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Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Tue, 20 Mar 2007 19:43:33 GMT

you're making it really hard to hold on.

with you i wonder if i'm the only one

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Wed, 28 Feb 2007 23:11:52 GMT

"Now all you girls will soon mature," she said

"What will happen to us, Miss?" asked someone in the class.

"Menstruation," said Miss Joesph in a doomed voice.

"What about boys, Miss, do they menstruate?"

"No," said Miss Joseph "They masturbate."

seems like a hundred years, i still can't believe you're gone

Sunday, February 25, 2007

Sun, 25 Feb 2007 23:25:15 GMT

MCR concert in fortysomething days!

can't wait till summer
can't wait to LEAVE.

'people' can be so pathetic...its kindofdisgusting.
but i guess thats okay...cuz i'm disgusting too.

but my baby has a carrr <3 so its cool.

its over. theres nothing you can do.

Sunday, February 11, 2007

Sun, 11 Feb 2007 20:22:23 GMT

so today we went to the cemetary to see nana. its been almost exactly four weeks...

other than that, this weekend wasn't all that horrible and depressing. actually, some very awsome stuff happened last night. but thats so not the point.

surrender every thought, every word, every sound.

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Tue, 06 Feb 2007 01:37:40 GMT

its so funny how people can be so stupid sometimes. like your problems revolve around them.

this week Wednesday, is my grandpa's birthday...and it'll be exactly three weeks. we want to go to the cemetery but its twice as cold there as it is now. his grave is in the most beautiful spot though, it almost suits him perfectly. it was just so hard to see him in that coffin because he looked so peaceful and young, like he was going to get up and start walking, breathing again. it still doesn't feel real.

i guess i miss him, you know, the way he was and everything.

and my grandma's cancer might be genetic. whoo hoo.

edit.//

my dance teacher is SUCH a bitch.

you're just a day late

Monday, January 29, 2007

Mon, 29 Jan 2007 03:54:26 GMT

theres like, nothing left to hold on to.
except the one best friend i have, and large amounts of alcohol.
and 40 days.

what a wicked game to play

Friday, January 26, 2007

Fri, 26 Jan 2007 04:58:16 GMT

are we supposed to be able to go through this without knowing what we want, or who we want.?

they say bad things happen in threes, and so far theres been two
after bankrupcy and loosing a loved one, i don't really think any of us want to know what this third is going to be.
i guess you could say we'll wait and see. but i'm kinda hoping that this time, it just stops at two.
and i really wish i could say that at least theres one thing thats going amazingly great. but there really isn't...
so things are going to change now aren't they

Death: The end of one life and the beginning of another.

I'm in my field of paper flowers.

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Tue, 23 Jan 2007 20:06:21 GMT

so here i go again, completely screwing myself over and getting into situations i don't need to be in. this is so stupid

edit.

so i guess since people stopped reading this thing, i might as well just say...my grandpa passed away on wednesday and this is for him:

Walking down the bleached white hallways
Time slowing down with each passing second
Silence of a million voices screaming for help
All you can hear is the soft hiss of machines filled with life

You put me here
You left me here
I’ll always be here
Just for you

Look into the room with a glass door
She lays motionless on the bed, breathing
He sits close and reads to her faithfully
Seeing past the wires, he knows she’s barely there

So I’ll wait
To see you again I’ll wait
To hear you breathe I’ll wait
Please come back

He watched her heart rate drop slowly
It was kind of like a blessing in disguise
She’ll leave this stupid place
She’ll leave the pain behind

if everyone cared and nobody died.

Friday, January 12, 2007

Fri, 12 Jan 2007 04:11:35 GMT

i wish that things would stay the same for like 2 seconds.

will you close the casket, make it glass so i can see you again.

Sunday, December 10, 2006

Sun, 10 Dec 2006 03:45:04 GMT

i fucking hate you, i can't believe you did this to me.

and then you have the nerve to go and say that he still loves me?
bitch.

and you knew, you KNEW the whole time.
so i hope he makes you feel better

if you see me, please just walk on by. forget my name and i'll forget it too.